i guess we can call this the official breakup survey…answers from 2009 are first.answers from today are 2nd and bold Is there a big difference between “i love you” and “luv ya”? I guess itd be a huge difference if love were realI think so
Do you have strong feelings for the last person you texted? mattcollari is my brother yeah, i just wish he wasnt a prick. Last meal you ate? ramen meh and that will be my meal errry day for the next weeksplit a buffalo chicken app with Jena lastnite… not really hungry today.
If someone liked you right now, would you want them to straight out tell you? yes i guess. Where did you get the shirt you’re wearing? the dryer this morninggg forever 21. i slept in it lastnite. clearly im a model today. When was the last time you had butterflies in your tummy? yesterday but they werent good ones i wish i knew Are you happy? im alritenot really to be honest.Have you ever had a pet fish? i have one nowww yeah, they are the most boring pet EVER!What’s on your wish list for your birthday? all i want is fun with all my favorite people well it just passed. wasnt what i hoped for. maybe next year ill see some friends? Does the future make you more nervous or excited? anxious anxious to see whats next. Something you hate more than anything? nonsense VELVET. its gross.
Did you kiss or hug anyone today? no :(nah.
Do you firmly believe that everything happens for a reason? yes most definitely always yeah theres always a reason. sometimes the reason just sucks. How many kids do you wanna have? idk lets try actually being able to have a boyfriend first 2 boy then babygirl. Last time you cried? lastnight and maybe a little this morningallll day today.. my contacts fell out. then i laughed.
What were you doing this morning at 7am? sleeeping driving back to clinton from hopkington to get my stuff. Where have you lived throughout your life? all over mass ^
What were you doing at 1 AM this morning? driving ina car with 2 pretty girls sleeepin
Where were you Friday night? work then my beddddwork then clinton
Do you have any piercings? ears and nosey^
Closest blue object to you? a shopping bagmy bed is blue and im on it.
Where will you be in an hour? sad in my bed stillmy bed. or maybe ill shower. probs not though Have you ever been in a really big fight with a best friend? umm yes. yeah. a while ago.
Do you have a best friend to lean on? a few!no not really lately. everyones got their own things i guess. Name something you CANNOT wait for? idk? changes. definitely. Who’s making you feel the way you are right now? they know… pretty much everyone. especially john. Have you ever felt replaced? yeah its terriblea lot the past few months.
Where were you at 11 pm last night? my room johns How many hours did you sleep last night? 5 not sure. maybe like 6? Are you the same person as you were at the beginning of 2008? no way i dont even remember 2008 Relationship status? single for life apparentlysingle.
How long have you been in this status? forevasince 7 am.
Do you cook? yeahsure do.
What’s the closest red object to you? a blankeyi got nothin’
What posters do you have on your wall? no poster just lots of photos photos and a poster of DOM sam made Who was the last person you spoke on the phone for over an hour? hmm. idkkkk? my phone wont even let me talk on it anymore i can only txtim not sure to be honest.
Are you afraid of falling in love? love isnt real. and ill never fall into its stupidnvjkfngkajbarg!yes, it hurts and confuses the fucking shit outta me.
When was the last time you saw your dad? oh i dont know? never. whats a dad?
Can you cook mac ‘n cheese? yes i canmac n cheese is fool proof cmon!
Who was the last person you had a phone call with? no oideajohn
Do you laugh enough? i hope sonot lately
Look to your right, what is there? a wall a window Were you happy when you woke up today? not so much nope. Does it matter to you if your boyfriend/girlfriend smokes? me=singleforlife. yeah, i dont find it attractive by any means
Where is your phone? next to me on my chest Do you need to say anything to anyone? doesnt mattterno im good
Do you have anything that belongs to your ex boyfriend/girlfriend? nope it got taken yesterdayyeah. nothin good though.
Who was the last person you had an argument with? no ideajohn
What are you currently doing besides this? nothing watching love and other drigs for the 78th time Any plans for tomorrow? work work work till 1 then maybe ill participate in restaurant week. Are you going to be home alone tonight? no sammy babys homeno lil nana is home partyin. shes a fun lady.
How has this week been? crap alrite. todays stupid though
Is someone mad at you right now? idkseems it.
What is the last non-alcoholic beverage you had? water h2o Are you keeping a big secret right now? nopeno
Do you always answer your phone? nonono nah imma screener. How long can you go without your phone? 2 secondidk?
Did you like 2008? NOi dont remember it. i spend most of it blackout drunk to be honest. so i must not have liked it.
Have you ever fallen asleep in someone’s arms? :(yeah.
Today i had some kindve emotional…thing. IDK what to call it.
it wasnt an anxiety attack. it wasnt positive, but it wasnt negative either?
im not sure wtf it was.
I think that I basically just realized that if I want anything at all to change…
I, me, Brittany gotta change it myself.
No ones gonna tell me what to do or how to do it, or better yett if I should. No matter what it is. And I can bet just about anything even if they did…I wouldnt listen.
You see, I feel like im in a rut. I feel like everyone close to me is in some kindve a rut as well.
My boyfriend, 2 of my bestfriends, close co-workers… basically everyone I spend my time with.
Seasonal depression? Maybe a lil bit.
It could have something to do with the fact that all of us are in our 20s and bored. Feeling trapt by the comforts of friends, family,and stable jobs?
I just have ZERO urge to do the things I used to do constantly, or even make an effort to see/hangout with a majority of the people i used to do those things with.
Not that I dont miss them/ care about them…i just dont care to go back to doing the SAME thing all the time.
For example: lets face it..my love for a little bar located on 34 Harvard ave in Allston Massachusetts is pretty much a memory. Im not really sure what it would take to get me to spend a thursday at the Draft these days.
Id rather be in full old lady mode watching tv on a saturday night with my boyfriend. THAT IS SO LAME, but its true. Says the girl who a year ago would literally get anxiety over the thought of "wasting" a saturday night.
Its pretty impossible for me to organize the 329483028 thoughts,fears, and/or questions i got floating around in this little pisces brain of mine right now.
I just know I need something. A change. A major one.
Complaining just isnt getting me anywhere.
maybe sometime during this lil 365 project ill figure out what it is…
Ive wanted to do it for a while now but have basically been too lazy/ didnt think my life was that interesting. then i realized….it doesnt really matter how interesting I am, really. the whole point is to see how ive changed in 365 days.What better way to see the wonderful things you discover/change/realize in just a short year. so yeah, im into it.
WARNING THOUGH: i may be one of the most random people out there…and im terrible with spelling/ punctuation. here goesssss
alright.so. im a 24 year old woman now..
ew. i hate the word woman.
babe… yeah, thats better. 24 year old babe.
ive realized tbat birthdays are fun and all but you cant expect others to make as big of a deal as you secretly wish they would.
DAMMIT, i know. Butttt hey…whatre ya gonna do?
well me? i pouted a lil bit. felt bad for myself. thought, and over thought…
Then i decided to suck it up and enjoy myself the best i could. i mean it was snowing out, naturally Because i love snow. meh.
its fine. i pryed myself outta johns bright orange bed and he gave my 2 charms for my charm bracelet he got me for xmas. one was my birth stone and the other his. cute. i like him, sometimes. hahaa
then we went to the Lancaster flea market. It was closing in an hour but we took full advantage or the lil bit of time we had. I cant wait to go back…its bursting with little treasures i MUST own sooner or later.
I decided to use my little (and by little i mean HUGE) instant camera i bought myself for my birthday- HEY! if im not gonna spoil myself, who is?
nothing too wild or eventful, it was sunday after all.
and just to catch us up to speed here
-MONDAY- i didnt take any photos. John spent the day @ the ER with his grandfather… and i waited for him in clinton so i would be closeby if and when he needed me. ive definitely been saying some extra prayers </3
-TUESDAY(TODAY)- I worked 10 to 430, sat in traffic to get home then had a cleaning party with myself… no photos again. ill get better at this I SWEAR!